Just cause I tell you that you’re cute doesn’t mean I like you or I want to pursue anything with you.
I just think you’re cute.
It’s 9:20AM. I’m awake early af cuhz babe wanted me to wake up early so I can go to his house early.. I don’t even wake up this early during the school year. LOL.
“They don’t know how long it takes, waiting for a love like this. Every time we say good bye, I wish we had one more kiss. I’ll wait for you, I promise you, I will. I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend.” Lucky by Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat.
Just got off the phone with my grandpa. I miss him so much )’: We had a quick catch up conversation and then I asked him if he could get me a rent a car in August. He said he wants to meet/talk to Babe first. -____- Other than that, good convo. And he said he’s sending me pasalubong! :D Yumpppps, good way to end the night. Going to sleep now cuhz I’m spending the tomorrow with babe. Day 2 of being lazy and watching tv all day. :3 G’NIGHT TUMBLR.
You remember every little detail. Not just the basis of what happened. From the way the weather was to what people were wearing to the looks on peoples faces when the bad part happened. I hate dreams like that. Not only am I.. In a state of emotional discombobulation, in my dream. But I’m also just as discombobulated when I wake up. Maybe even more. And it results to me laying in bed for hours, crying, wondering when I don’t have to worry anymore..
They say if you fall in love fast, the love won’t last, and I strongly agree with that. That’s why I’m taking things as slow as possible with him. I don’t want anything to go wrong or get fucked up. Even though I know eventually, our first fight will come. I want this “honeymoon” stage to last as long as it possibly can. My best friend and my almost boyfriend. <3
They’re so annoying! All of them piss me off in one way or another. This isn’t me talking shit because they know damn well I’d say it to their face and most of them have a Tumblr and follow me, so yeahhhhhh. But anyways, they’re just so ugh. They’re frustrating with how immature and just straight up stupid they act! That’s why I’m starting to drift away from them. The first drift was intentional. Now, it’s just because they’re all so freaking aggravating! And even though they aggravate me, they’re still my down ass homies. I try to invite them to things that I’m doing, and what do they do? Fucking flake last minute. WELL FUCK YOU THEN!
And by letter, I mean pen and paper, not your
fingers and phone. Doesn’t matter if it’s old school, there’s still girls out there that prefer reading handwritten letters that have a special meaning over corny text messages that can just be saved and forwarded on to the next girl.
I hate when I’m trying to be funny and say something kinda stupid, then the other person doesn’t get it and tries to smart ass me. -_______- Don’t try to smart ass the smart ass, homie. It will never work and I can guarantee you that.
That’s it, I’m done looking. I’m tired of the lies and bullshit the past has put me through. Why should I put so much effort into something that’s going to fuck me in the end? Why should I even try? I go around trying to find the one, when I finally thought I did, they leave me heartbroken. I’m exhausted from being told that I’m different, that they’re different, that they won’t hurt me because they’re truly falling for me. Well, if you were truly falling for me, why did you lie to me? Why did you end up leaving me in the end? Why did you say you wouldn’t hurt me but I’m the one sitting here in tears wondering where the hell you went. Thanks for making me feel like a total fool for falling for your words. All the bullshit I’ve been through, is just another reason for me to put more walls up, another reason to be defensive, another to not fall for someone so easily. Right now, I’m just going with the flow. Why should I still have my hopes up for something that doesn’t give 2 cents about me. Whatever happens, happens. People say, good things come to those who wait, well you know what, I’m done waiting too. If you want to catch my attention, capture my heart, make me truly fall for you- man, you better give it your all. Because in the end, it’ll truly show me how much you’re fighting for me, how much you’re willing to wait. I’ll test your patience, your endurance, your ability. So if you quit in the end, it shows that you were never actually there for me. So to those who are still to come into my life, bring it on.